Stuck In A Moment You Can’t Get Out Of

Have you ever put yourself in a situation you are sure you will never get yourself out of? Think about it. That dead end job that you loath but you know that you are either not qualified for anything you are applying for or you don’t know if what you are qualified for is what you want to do anymore…story of my life.

Jobs applied or don’t even bother with a thanks but no thanks email anymore let give you an interview whether you are qualified or not. Maybe you are a fast learner and something you applied for has on the job training.

So what if you are only thirty and the online application page says needs 30+ years experience. Apply for it and then forget about it because at least you tried, right?

Why do we rely on others so much for validity, for everything really? Tonight I came to the realization that when something doesn’t go the way that I expected it to I have a tendency to just give up. I guess I knew already that it was just the way I am but still. What I really wanted was to go out with my friends and it didn’t happen for one reason or another and I decided that if I wasn’t having dinner with them, I wasn’t having dinner at all.

All anyone wants, even an introvert like me, is to be noticed and acknowledged for the things that we accomplish. So what if I didn’t do that one thing you expected me to do right in front of you the way you wanted me to do it the moment you expected it to be done even though I was doing a million other things at the time that you would have said something about if I hadn’t done. Doing my job and doing it your way are two different things in my book. I f you punish someone for that by giving them one shift a week that is your problem and you will lose because while I can’t find a new job at present doesn’t mean I won’t go to another location and ask if they can give me some shifts. Same name different management.

Oh well now I am going on a tangent and forgetting where I was going with this post. So I might be stuck right now but hopefully some day somehow I will get out of this mess I’m living in and win.