So Tired

Another symptom of diagnosed and therefore untreated depression. Constantly exhausted wanting to go back to bed but laying down and staring at the ceiling for hours when you finally do go back to bed.

Gonna keep this one short and not so sweet since it is just one of those days. Just wanted to get a blog post out there so another day doesn’t go by without one. This seems to be what is working these days. At least for now.

There are so many signs and symptoms I keep reading on depression and anxiety on Pinterest and Facebook. A lot of them are just synonyms for the same things over and over again. Tired, withdrawn, low self-esteem…blah blah blah. You don’t think that those are just a few of the things that people with anxiety worry about on top of the fact that others notice those specific symptoms.

Yes mother I know I am always doing nothing! It’s just that it takes everything out of me to go out and do thing like looking for another job for which I have to put myself out there online, and the have to drive to an interview in which I feel lucky if it is just with one person. Next I have to wait by the phone constantly until the person calls me back if they ever call me back. Just another thing for my brain to constantly tell me what I did wrong in the interview that gives them a million reasons not to call me back, or the ever popular call back (or email) of ‘thanks but no thanks.’

Yes I am still waiting to hear back from the interview yesterday since I was the first person they called in for an interview, and yes it was with two people, and they said they would get back to me within the next two weeks.

This waiting might just be the end of me.