Reasons why I want this blog and crafting thing to go off: 1. Working for certain bosses is more work than the actual work that one is paid to do. Especially when the work you do isn’t worth the pay either. 2. I AM AN INTROVERT…if you hadn’t noticed by now.
The whole smile and be polite crap one has to do in the food service industry is just that, crap. Then today I was told I have poor work ethic second hand from the manager that does the scheduling the reason I am not being scheduled appropriately is that I don’t bus tables right or do any of the side work before I leave after my shift. First of all I do almost the entire list of side work before the restaurant is even open to the public. So I don’t know why me doing it with her not around for her to see that I have physically done this God forsaken checklist that they manufacture out of thin air just a few months ago, even though it was my daily routine to do it all in the first place for the last year and a half. Sure I don’t bus the whole table though. I was told at the very beginning that my job was the cups, utensils, trash, and some of the smaller plates. The wait staff would get their big plates if they haven’t already. Then I am to wipe the table down and move on. That and the side work which always gets done no matter when I do it is my job. Doesn’t sound like a lot but seriously this list of side work two or more people is what its worth and again I don’t get paid enough to be told when and how to do it while I’m there. Frankly after today the windows in the foyer look better than they have in forever and we apparently, at one point anyway, had a cleaning service for the store that vacuumed and washed windows before the front of house staff arrived. Seriously though if I can’t even keep this stupid job what else is there out there for me.
A shy or reticent person, introvert. I don’t like controversy but my anxiety makes it all ten times worse. I end up going off at the wrong place, wrong time, wrong person because I bottle it all up inside of me and have panic attacks in public places like my place of work. When the boss complains about my performance I just break down and cease to function like the semblance of a normal human being like I usually can do. Case and point, an introvert with high anxiety should not work in a high stress, ultimately public job, with a boss who is too preppy and has a higher self-esteem and regard for themselves more than others.
Low self-esteem, high anxiety leavel, but hey I got the new DVD player to work yesterday and I got the internet connected to the TV today so that’s two checks in the win column this week. Since I got called into work today I didn’t get any projects done or go for a walk but maybe I can walk later. Too agitated to work on a wallet or purse this evening, it would only frustrate me more.
Silence is Golden, Duct Tape is Sliver...Sometimes 